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[shipper]

Hey! You juuust missed me, which is purretty hard to do so good job! Leave a message here and I'll get back to you as soon as I pawsibly can. If it's supurr impurrtant though, you should just try and find me in purrson! It's purrobably a lot easier than waiting fur me to pick up.

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[shipper]

:33 < that isnt the truth
:33 < thats you believing that something is impossible to change and not even wanting to think about the possibility that maybe youre wrong
:33 < its you telling someone that they just have to accept that theyre going to die
:33 < if im so strong then why couldnt you have maybe believed in me just this once?

[glowsferatu]

Because This One Is Beyond Us
I Dont Mean It As Anything Against You Personally
None Of Us Can Conquer It And There Have Been Those Who Have Tried
Not Even Your Prior Iterations
I Didnt Say It Would Be Easy To Accept
Or That You Would Have To Do So Alone If You Didnt Want To
But I Dont Know What Else I Can Say To It

[shipper]

:33 < you dont know that
:33 < you cant possibly tell me that in the million billion little twists and turns of paradox space that there isnt some way that i can avoid that
:33 < you just cant
:33 < and its not fair of you to expect me to do that!

[glowsferatu]

If There Is One I Havent Yet Found It
Nepeta I Want It To Be True Just As Much As You Do
The Idea That We Can Go Back And Fix Everything Before Our Own Actions Sour It Is A Tempting One
But Its Also An Empty Fiction

[shipper]

:33 < just because you say it is doesnt make it true
:33 < and if you want it to be true so badly then why dont you believe that maybe i can actually do it!?
:33 < what is so horrible to you about thinking that im capable of accomplishing something big?

[glowsferatu]

Nepeta This Isnt About A Lack Of Belief In You
I Think Youre Capable Of A Great Many Things
But Not This
This Is Something That Simply Cannot Be Done
And Belief On Its Own Isnt Going To Make Truth Of A Falsity
No Matter How Much We May Wish It Would

[shipper]

:33 < but you dont know that for sure
:33 < no one does
:33 < so why are you so set on telling me theres no way ill ever do it?
:33 < is it because you couldnt?

[glowsferatu]

Must It Always Come Down To That
Can You Really Not See Me Imagining Others Achieving What I Cant
Why Are You So Determined To Take This Personally When It Isnt

[shipper]

:33 < i dont know
:33 < i guess i just take things involving my inevitable death really personally for some reason

[glowsferatu]

That Isnt What I Mean
Every Time I Say That No One Can Change It You Recenter It As Though Im Directing It Only At You
As If I Speifically Believe You Incapable Of Anything Because Of It
It Doesnt Change Depending On Who It Is Making The Attempt
This Is A Matter Of Absolutes

[shipper]

:33 < absolutes that youre not even sure about
:33 < and of course id talk about me specifically thats who were talking about! my future and my trying to change it!
:33 < uuuuuuuuuugh!!!!
:33 < it doesnt matter were just going to k33p talking in circles
:33 < you dont want to listen

[glowsferatu]

When Have I Ever Expressed Not Being Sure
Im Pretty Damn Sure About These Things Otherwise I Wouldnt Be So Insistent
And Im Not The Only One Refusing To Listen If Thats Even A Thing Im Doing

[shipper]

:33 < youre trying to tell me that you are super sure that something involving paradox space is unchangeable
:33 < do you know how iffy that sounds?
:33 < and if im not listening then its because im tired of being told the same thing after the thirtieth time!!

[glowsferatu]

Im Saying That Your Lack Of Memory On Return Occurs Without Exception To Prevent The Very Sort Of Thing Youre Planning
And That Excuse Might Have More Weight If You Didnt Refuse To Listen Just The Same On The Previous 29 Tellings

[shipper]

:33 < you only know that about the people who come back eventually
:33 < nobody knows what happens when they stay gone
:33 < what am i going to lose if i try? im already dead
:33 < but i guess you dont want to understand that so theres no point in explaining

[glowsferatu]

The Erasure Isnt When We Return To The City
Its When We Leave It
I Can Attest To This From Experience Ive Been Back Before
Or Do You Think Equius Simply Decided Not To Disclose Any Of It And Continue Along As If Still Ignorant
His Own Death He Might Hide But He Would Have Tried Harder to Prevent Yours

The Problem Isnt That You Want To Try
Its That Youre Letting The Idea Of Dubious Success Consume You
You Should Enjoy The Time You Have Here While Its Available

[shipper]

:33 < dont talk about equius like you know what hed do
:33 < and dont try and tell me i should be grateful that i get time in the city!
:33 < i still have to go back
:33 < we all have to go back, thats where were n33ded
:33 < and im not going to suddenly forget about whats coming just because i get a few extra perig33s in another universe

[glowsferatu]

You Dont Have To Forget
There Is No Forgetting
Just To
I Dont Know
Find Your Peace With It

[ what she's not saying: this is exactly why we were so afraid to tell you. ]

I Dont Know That I Want You To Be Grateful Exactly
But I At Least Was Grateful To Be Able To Spend This Time With You

[shipper]

:33 < im glad that you were happy to s33 me i guess but theres no way anyone could be peaceful with this
:33 < im six, kanaya
:33 < im six
:33 < and this isnt a future no matter how grateful you are that im here

[glowsferatu]

Why Cant It Be
If Its What You Have There Should Be No Reason To Begrudge It
Not When We Tend To Be Given So Little

[shipper]

:33 < this isnt home
:33 < this isnt anything like home
:33 < nobody staying here is for sure, everyones coming and going and coming back not remembering
:33 < and were still always getting hurt except here its not even for any reason
:33 < and
:33 < and hes not here

[glowsferatu]

I Recall Thinking Similarly Of The Meteor At One Time
When I First Arrived Here At Least
How Aimless It Was Hadnt Really Taken Hold Until After Everything Happened
Even The Slimmest Hopes Id Clung To Had Been Demolished
And To My Knowledge We Simply Would Float On Through A Starless Void Indefinitely Until The Rest Of Us Were Dead
It Would Have Been Just My Undead Luck To Be The Final One Remaining

The City Is A Far Better End Than That Would Have Been
If I Could Bring Him Here Out Of That Dont Doubt For A Moment That I Would
Both For Him And You

[shipper]

:33 < this isnt any better
:33 < this is just as pointless in its own way
:33 < and paradox space doesnt deserve to win
:33 < i have to go back and prove them and you and everyone wrong
:33 < besides if hes not coming then i have to go to him
:33 < thats just how it goes

[glowsferatu]

Im Sorry Nepeta
But There Are Certain Things That Just Cant Be Fought

[shipper]

:33 < youre wrong
:33 < i wish that youd s33 that but i guess thats something that even i cant change